sun in 12th house

Give intuitive receptivity high priority in your life, without controlling the specifics of what you receive, and your life sings with vibrant energy. Shut down your intuition, and you close off access to cosmic juice. Don’t strain to figure out why you pick up flows of imagery and feeling, bits of information and insight. Don’t strive to figure out what they mean nor what you should do with them. Your task is to remain radiantly quiet, vibrantly still, pregnantly calm. The pitfall is misinterpretation, creating sophisticated forms while missing the truth. The challenge is to become a clear channel for the universe to speak through, a prism for otherwise invisible light. (Bill Herbst)

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You become insecure when you subconsciously know that your ego-self is not real and, therefore, cannot really take part in the activities of the world. Having no real self, you cannot really assert yourself. This may lead to two reactions. First, you may become self-abnegating. You may be overly timid and shy, with no self-confidence or self-esteem. You may withdraw from the world rather than face it and reveal your secret–that you are not real. You may also try to destroy the “illusion” of your self through drugs, alcohol or self-destructive behavior. Alternatively, you may try to protect yourself from discovering your essential non-existence by projecting a false self that operates constantly in illusion. This person has no concept of truth and seeks to keep everything hidden and behind the scenes. You are, in essence, your own puppet. (Gargatholil)

where are the absolute truths?

like you might think something is true

but the opposite is also true 

bottom line is, don’t be so sure

and be sure to be okay with that

bottom line is this one

brocoli

can you smell this air?

"anyone outside of us, is a reflection of ourselves"

"what you serve, you deserve"

"you can use any situation in Life to lead you to more and more freedom or to more and more bondage" (experience things fully and you'll see how quickly things are let go of)

El pelo color de nieve,
mil arrugas en la cara,
ojos pequeños y alegres
que miran por unas gafas.
El cuerpo se le ha encorvado,
sus piernas están cansadas.
Siempre lleva su bastón.
Casi no sale de casa.
Tiene un gato de piel negra,
de patas largas y blancas,
ojos verdes y redondos
que brillan como esmeraldas.
Tiene un libro muy antiguo
con todas las letras mágicas,
que explica cómo se habla
con animales y plantas,
con las nubes, con los montes,
con el viento y con el agua.
Y dice cómo se vuela
por encima de las casas,
montada sobre una escoba,
sobre una escoba encantada.
Una bruja cariñosa y viejecita.
Eso es Águeda.

dis

connected

life is shrt

i've been thinking -and feeling- about it lately

i'm so caught up in the drama of everyday life and interactions
but i'm also realizing that it goes beyond me

to create, to help people
to start being the change i wanna see out

as things change
they begin and
end

source

it's plastic rat season again

you coke can do it

source

get offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff# it's a colorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

al one

shouganai

dear benton,

"life is not when i'm alone", is something i wrote in a notebook last year

i like being alone
and i need it sometimes too -given that most of my daily interactions end up draining me because sincerity is not my strong suit - i am a huge people pleaser, but truth is not many people please me (taste-wise; i'm a snobbb)

but something interesting happens to me when i'm with someone i resonate with: i become the best version of myself in many ways- i'm selfless, i'm caring, i'm affectionate, i'm open to try new things, i'm confident, i allow myself to be bizarre and weird (if there's some level of unconditionallity), i see the world in bright colors

it's fucking interesting
it's like suddenly things are charged with meaning

i'm working on myself these days, i don't want to hurt people, and i want first and foremost to learn and take proper care of myself
but all that starts by understanding keys pieces of the puzzle, and for me, that is one of those

my longing for companionship -a deep connection- is something that might be engraved within my soul

it's cool to accept it, and also understand how its negative aspect has impacted my life (and the lives of others)

la foto era a ti
se te ve bien ahí detrás, ¿cómo estás?

sí, bueno, qué bueno

by After Skool

(on making/be the change) "I can't stop that as a whole. But I can stop my contribution to it"

-What’s the secret to shutting up?
-I simply don’t think everything I have to say about anything is important. Haha.
-Do you have any mantras you’ve repeated to yourself recently, or that you’ve found to be helpful at any point in your life?
-‘Nobody cares.’ I know it sounds negative, but to me it’s not. I say those two words all the time to remind myself not to be too self-serious. Every now and then I like to say, ‘Fuck who sees.’

(Frank Ocean interview)

I just had an interaction with my roommate and boy oh boy!
I went back to my room amazed at my (dis)ability to overshare. It almost feels like everything I have experienced is on sale.
And I’ll be giving advice, son. Addvice. Good thing is that midsentence I realize a good old truth: I don’t know shit, I just don’t.

Fortunately, this usually happens with people I have a social contract with, and not people with whom I truly connect.

But it’s still somewhat devastating afterwards. Like who is the person that says and does all these things that I don't actually like while I'm watching uncomfortably from the couch?

I should learn to deal with it better -step by step (towards the door)-, as opposed to not leaving my room. Ever.
I suppose.
Don't know.

2018

"it's my job to see the world and report back
it's my job to feel things fiercely
and it's my job to be present"

-maggie rogers

everytime i venture into the world

i realize what a hostile place it is

or maybe how unprepared i am -still*- to navigate it properly

whatever the case might be, no

*if anything, i've gotten worse, dog 

now that i'm older, and i have experienced some things i hadn't and discovered underlying patterns here and there, i don't have that mysterious thirst 

my only real thirst these days is for wholange, the number 1 orange soda in the county

nadie está mirando

we’re going down, folks

and it will be under a 90-feet wave of orange soda
according to a dream i had last night
so enjoy your existence, and what better way to do it than with a bottle of wholange? now with vitamin c

(not sponsored) 

nothing sticks

not even sticks

but cheeeeeese sticks do, kid

is one random fly gonna pay for all the times other flies did their fucking thing?

from flying high, we would like for you to reconsider and chill the fuck out, bro

otherwise, you’ll have to make walkers a sandwich every tuesday

open your mind and close your eyes: it’s a free massage

here's a mirror:

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directions:

·look at it
you will probably see an ant back there
and also you, filters off

·embrace that ant and the smell of freshly cut grass and the touch of waves and your eyes

·get lost in your eyes, venture into the unknown (just step on as few ants as possible while doing so, please)

2013